After Life PDF Print E-mail
Written by muineach   
Friday, 14 April 2006

First off there is more to this world that we realise, we’re missing something raw, elemental, maybe it was something we realised in the past but now forgotten or something that we understood at a fundamental level as animals.  My reasoning for this is the energy feelings I get from my hands and from people, it tends to make me think there more, something tells me I’ve just touched the surface from.

Secondly, theres one overall god, all other gods are just a different manifestation of it, be it jew, Christian or Muslim its all the same, I don’t believe that it matters which one you choose.

Third, there is more to life after you die, whether that be reincarnation, hell or heaven, or something even more fantastic.  While I’ve grown up as a catholic I have a hard time in believing in hell, I think its more of idea to allow people that have been wronged to think that at least when they die that the wrongs done to them will be avenged.  But one problem that I have with this is that by doing so, by saying he’ll pay in hell are you too not just commiting a “sin”, when most people say that they’re realy just wishing that that will happen. Accordingly to the catholic church children that died in infancy before they could be baptised would be placed in limbo (along with other people of other reigions) for eternity, being denied joy but not being placed in hell.

For me if god would do that to a perfectly innocent child then, he is no god to me if that means that I go to “hell” then so be it.  I met a catholic evangelist in a healing meeting which I didn’t really want to go to, I went for my parents sake.  He talked about how he had seen mary and how she had a beautiful crown and georgeous dress, he went on to say that if you follow the bible you too could be a king in heaven, again it’s the carrot and the stick.  Do this and when you die you’ll get x.  The problem I have with this scenario is that in his vision he saw mary with crowns etc.  why would she appear with crowns surely she would be beyond trying to impress people with things like that, why not appear in a sack cloth, I think he was placing his own ideas of high stature on her, then the things with becoming as a king in heaven, those were his exact words btw, that conjours images of someone with stature, rank, wealth where you could live the life of a king, wanting for nothing.

This is where I have my problem, the carrot and the stick, fi I were a god I would think more of an atheist who didn’t believe in god or an afterlife, who had lived a good life, trying to do good where he could and as little harm as he could, rather than a god fearing man living his lfe by the bible so that he could become a king in heaven.  This is my belief, if I’m wrong I’m wrong, but isn’t that what a belief is.

And finally I don’t follow the ten commandments as I should, I follow my own set of rules, and it isn’t a le carte Christianity, its sums most world religions into a few simple rules, well not rules but guidelines.  Its quite simple try not to harm anybody be that in flesh or in feelings, so that rules out murder, infedility, cheating in work/screwing someone over and emotionally harm.  Lets be honest people realise that what they are going to do is wrong, yet they still do it, this is what I think is the worst. The second guidline is the exact opposite, try to do good, whether that be give to charity, falling in love with someone, be kind to people, respect them  or as I may put it in more cruder terms don’t be a prick.

So that’s what I live by, and I’m the first to admit I’m not perfect I’ve broken these rules many a time, but that’s not the point, the point is that your trying to do good that you have a belief system that you actually believe in, not one that was drummed into you as a child that you never questioned.  I have questioned it and found my own system that I believe encompasses the core of most religions.

So if there is a hell, what’s the judgement criteria ? What happens to you are you placed on stakes and tortured.  To me that seems a little obvious, I would think that reliving the days you did your most harm in the life of the person you harmed, where you experience everything they felt over and over, but the what would be the point of that ? Are you just be cruel or are you trying to improve the person so why ? where are they going ?

So there is no answer that I can give, only one way to find out.

Dream Prelude PDF Print E-mail
Written by muineach   
Friday, 14 April 2006

Then came my dreams, again I’m not sure if the tumor caused them or not, I think they started around 16 or so and have been with me ever since, these dreams are vivid, in them I can smell, taste and touch they are a real to me as reality is. 

Some nights I wont have any other nights I may have 2-4 dreams that I can remember, sometimes when I wake I can still smell the last dream even after breathing in and out a few times.  A few times I had a dream where a girl kissed my just as I was waking and I swear to god that I could feel the pressure on my lips, I know it sounds silly but it’s true.  Sometimes the dreams are nice sometimes not so nice, but almost all have a message, the ones that don’t are obvious, the thing is the dreams give me messages signs as to whats happening in my life and what to do.

In college my dreams were more violent, wars taking place, underground battery cages, people from the past not recognising who I was, this was when I was change, changing for the worse but I ever realised it at the time, I was way too immature at the time.  Then as I became more of who I really am I had dreams about a girl, they were all different girls or different races, the one thing they had in common was that they I could never remember they’re faces or that I couldn’t see them but I knew that they were beautiful in more than a purely physical way.

In one dream I was at a funeral, I was midway down the church to the right, there was a small family on the left side at the front of the church with a coffin at the top of the church, there was no priest no friends only family. Somehow I knew that the person I the coffin was me, and that the girl in the row in front of me weren’t really there physically. she was dressed in black with blonde hair (personally I prefer brunettes but that’s another story) she had turned around to me and we started to talk.  We had a connection and then eventually we kissed very gently, I started to give her  my number s she could call me, then she said no you will have to call me, I didn’t want that I wanted her to call me.  Then the coffin was carried down and out the church so we left.  So ok the funeral thing is odd and her making me call here was not that odd, the kicker is her name in the dream was fate, not faith but fate although I do think that there was an intentionally pun there.  So things like these dreams happen to me, it would kinda freak you out if I hadn’t had these most of my whole life.

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Religion PDF Print E-mail
Written by muineach   
Friday, 14 April 2006
So what am I doing ? I'm not so sure just typing to pass a few moments,  so what is this thing we call life ? what is it and how what are u supposed to do ? and how are you supposed to go about it.  So first off what is life and what are we supposed to do ? according to science its about propagating your genes, they fact being that we are just animals who happen to have larger brains that normal.

So what are we to do ? is it fall in love and make babies ? or is it to have sex as many times possible hoping to spread your seed thus making you immortal.  Is it to do with God ? are we just getting reincarnated over and over trying to become better people so that eventually we can go to a place called heaven, where there will be no evil, no hunger, no pestilence, where everyone will be happy and there we will live for ever.  So why would this make any sense ? a god would create beings and put them on the earth so that they can live through pain etc. and then if you die he will reward you with heaven, but only if you have lived by his decree, but then again he never really told anyone what he wanted ? most of the bible/kohran are hearsay where are the acts of god ? How many of the acts were recorded by more than one witness, they through centuries the process of transcribing things change.

With the Christian doctrine things change, priests were married, then no marriage, popes had kids, but then again things change, there was hell there was purgatory, then again things change.  So how much has changed over the years? How much can we take as the “gospel” or do we just take the common truths from all of the teachings of the likes of gospel/commandments/ Koran.

The common truths are quite simple when you boil it all down, but then again that’s just my interpretation of it, they may differ changing person to person.  I’m not going to preach what my interpretations of it are, so by now you may realise that I don’t believe in any one religion, my tendency is to believe in one god, I believe that no matter which god you believe in, it all ends up in the same place.  my belifs tend towards the older style religions, it’s a strange mix of old celtic style, believing that the old megalithic tombs are places of worship and I get more a sense of peace at these places rather than at churches.

At these places I can sit down and relax, and maybe pray but I still pray to god (catholic) as it was the way I was brought up and as I said earlier that I believe that all your prayers go to the one source.  I see “god” in the world around us in nature, in animals, but that is not all I believe, with my recent diagnosis of a brain tumour I’m not sure what to think anymore. 

In the past things that happened to me seemed normal at the time, but later after meeting someone and talking with them about it I realised that what happened to me was not normal.  But lately I’m not sure if these things really happened or if they were just things that were caused by my brain tumour.

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